So there this girl!! lol...........will yea her name is britney and im like i like her alot!! like i love her and everything. The only thing i hate is the distance!! like she lives in michigan and i wanna see her so bad. So like we met through myspace and we talked and then we started talking on the phone and omg she has a sexy voice. When i dont hear it i miss it. We talk everyday and when we dont we miss eachother and its crazy how we can talk and not get bored of eachother. I happier then i have ever been. She has changed my life a lil and i love that. She calls me Sugarlips!! and i call her Hotlips!! like shes already my girlfriend and i just want to be with her so bad. I just wanna kiss her and hug her and never let go. We had an amzing time yesterday on the phone and i fianlly got to see her on the webcam i was so happy. Then we had a deep oonversation that made me and her cry becuase we wanna see eachother so bad but distance is killing us. I kno im gonna have an emotional breakdown if i dont see her soon. But when we do its gonna be one emotional mess lol!! I love this girl she brings out the best in me and is very different from other girls i have liked and dated. I just wish i can open up more to her but i kno my way of thinking and how i hold back my feelings and stuff. So yea thats what i want to write its been killing me inside. I cant believe i love this girl and i would do anything to be with her. I Love You britney

So its a sunday morning in november just friday it was halloween and it was pretty much boring until the football game. So noting seems the same anymore since i grqduated. I mean i dont talk to anyone anymore and not even my bestfriend. Its like im trying to figure out who i need in my life and who i dont want in my life. The people i try to keep in my life is like idont even exist in there eyes. Its like me saying hi and them just ignoring me. But is whatever because all that is making change the way i think. I choose to help myself then to help a friend out in some stupid drama. It gets annoying knowing that the people you once had such a close friendship just goes away in days. I want to start a new life for myself , new friends, new place to live, and i a good job tha wont keep me all moody lol. I can honestly say im tired of living in this town and the people around me do get tiring. January is when i start college and i just want to meet new people and have some fun into my life and be a little more happy. And as of now my parents arent any fun i get angry at them and omg there annoying question just makes me want to kill them but they obvious dont want me to fail in life. Will thats enough for today i just needed to takes some of my emotions out so i wont have to think about these things. I would talk to someone but im not into talking with someone that has there problems and then it becomes about them. So im done peace out